Frame from which I am writing:
I have recently found it necessary to ask the Father for more grace to handle the present circumstances. Except, it is backward from the normal. My life is so good and keeps getting better at such an exponential rate that I am finding it hard to adapt quickly enough.
"My soul is all but out of me"
-Edna St.Vincent Millay
Post:
Others have recently given me many deep compliments; intentional and unintentional ones. The unintentional compliments, statements about who I am, come through their words and actions that demonstrate fairly obviously that they believe in me, trust me, appreciate me, enjoy me, respect me, want to know what I think, and in other ways compliment me.
And I have been growing. I don't know why but Christ has recently gifted me with spiritual light in abundance. But more than that is the joy. Everything holds radiance. My quiet times are full, even if I don't try to come to the Father.
Every square inch of my life is exploding into goodness and Light. Romance. School. Small guys group. Ability to rest. and think. I picked up a hitch-hiker and
What did I pray? What command did I obey? What prayer was prayed over me? What am I being taught? Who has given me this gift and why me?
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And all this comes with a built-in pessimism; a belief that if it really is this good, and it probably isn't, then it most definitely will not last.
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1.
But God.
Oh! Oh! Oh! A thousand times louder, Oh!
Because God, more specifically because He is good and infinite, there is
no.
limit.
to goodness.
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2,
Evil is not an essential part of our being.
-GRM (George Macdonald)
Which means that we do not have to trade one vice for a better looking or lesser one but we can actually become closer and closer to His image. The best part is that we may start now. It might be that we must start now but I don't want to judge millions.
-may He grant light or darkness where I have been to lazy to lay it out clearly or where I have lied, respectively.
P.S.
and also, however seriously I take this odd thing called life, I have no reason to take myself all that seriously. It's all Him and His anyway.
My sin still runs deep. The very temptation of taking myself too seriously is evidence of a deep-seated pride. Why should I take myself seriously if there I am merely a mirror of His glory? The better a mirror is, the less you notice it.
Father,
Clean my eyes and face.
I beg of you.
-A slave to sin aspiring to be a slave to You.
